1 John 4:19 We love because he first loved us. NIV
1 John 4:19 We, though, are going to love- love and be loved. First, we were loved, now we love. He loved us first. MSG
How to be thankful for wounds.....
Well the wound in my marriage is what got me to leave my comfort of home in MS and brave the big ol’ city of Nashville (not that I venture often into the city!) I had prayed for God to change our situation for 2 years and I didn’t see anything changing. Then one day my husband came home and started to talk about getting a new job. I thought, that is it, that will be the answer to our prayers....Well, little did I know that would not be a local job! It seemed like God was answering the prayer to change in A BIGGER WAY THAN I HAD IMAGINED. He was giving us a new beginning, but we had to leave what we knew and go to the unfamiliar. It seemed terrifying, but also a huge opportunity. It was scary leaving what I had known for 41 years, BUT GOD. God knew what we needed. He knew we needed this move to get away from some hometown pressure and develop some healthy boundaries. During a time of feeling like I was not able to rely on anyone, God reminded me that He was the one to place my trust in. (Isaiah 26:4; Proverbs 3:5-6)
I grew up in a Christian household and had developed some roots over the years, but I feel that God really had to grow those fruits. I had to show that I could “walk the walk and not just talk the talk”. God grew me in a time of loneliness, to know that He is the one I can trust. He grew me in the knowledge that I am not alone ever, and He goes before me. (Joshua 1:9)
I didn’t know what awaited me in Nashville, but God knew and so many prayers have been answered. He found me a great job as a school counselor, doing what I love. He found us more than one place to live, and finally a sale of a home back in MS. He has provided friends for my kids and a way to fit in. He has given us a church home where we are learning more and more about how to live in the kingdom daily. He has grown me in illustrating my faith and even allowed me to share the talent He gave me with others. He has grown me in a hunger for his word and a daily thirst for Him. He has grown me in independence being in TN; vulnerability in not wearing a mask to pretend that everything was fine; humility in knowing that we can’t have a strong marriage without Him; grace in continuing to show love to my husband; forgiveness so that I don’t become bitter and resentful; courage to walk into a room of strangers and talk to people that I haven’t known all my life and a willingness to be open and try new things. He has given me the ability to share His story and be prayed for earnestly by some wonderful SOUL SISTERS.
My word for 2019 was delight. I am thankful that God has given me such a delight for living in TN. He is continuing to do a work on me and our marriage. I know He is still answering prayers and breaking strongholds. I have found delight in not knowing what will happen next, but knowing that I serve a God who goes before me and is with me every step. I can trust HIS PROMISES!
Further reading: James 1 –try to read in at least 2 different versions with The Message being one of them
I pray that you can continue to grow me and my other soul sisters in TRUSTING you. I want to claim your word and believe in your PROMISES. You promise that in all things you work for good of those who love you and have been called according to your purpose (Romans 8:28) Lord, when things don’t feel good, let me put that TRUST in you. Let me fill myself with your word daily and pour your truth into my brain. Help those around me see the love that I have for you in me. Help us all be your witnesses by our actions and by the fruit that we produce. Help us be bold and confident in our love for you! Amen